Job Searching

Sometimes it seems as if I am on this journey to a future that I am meant to find. Let me explain just a bit. I have found a terrific job, enjoyed the company, the people, and was excited every morning to get up and move forward. Then after just a short month they let me know they had found someone for less money to fill the position and I was no longer needed. STOP...Say What? Did I do something wrong? Did I make a horrid mistake? Just 5 days before this I was taken out to lunch and it was celebrated how grateful they were to have me. Oh well, life moves on. I took a deep breath and started again at trying to find the job I could retire with. Now for those who know me I love genealogy, love doing it for other people and know I should be doing that for the rest of my life. But trying to get my company restarted while trying to find out if I can work full time? Part time? Oh yes I am getting moved from SSI to disability. Finally now the big question. How much will my insurance be monthly? How many hours can I work? how much money can I make? Oh anyways here I am jumping around from subject to subject. I filled out over 39 job applications today. Always hoping and praying I can find the one. If you think this blog is confusing just wait until I get going on the one about dating... that one can take me off into page after page of scary dates and me wondering if not only if there is the perfect job for me but if I will ever find the man for me. Here is a funny note, I received a call from my niece, who had taken my dog over 2 years ago because my apartment would not let me have animals. Anyhow I received a call saying my dog Charlie had passed away. Okay really bad day right? Except they had called me a year ago saying he died. So my response was wow my dog was like me? She said what do you mean? I said well I have died a few times and now charlie has also? Are we sure he is dead? She said I never said he was dead I said I thought he was dying. Well folks if you are still reading this she stated he had died. I mourned the loss of my dog and friend over a year ago. Now it feels as sad as it did then. Well so much for this first post in a long time, I just felt the need to vent. oh and so much more is coming..... ha ha.